I hate Mondays And the Rest of the Week

Well survived another weekend. Rained Saturday and was very windy on Sunday. The woosie Bruiser has had to be in for three days the sound of the wind scares him. I picked up 4 20 lb dog food bags of pine cones and limbs this morning. The wind and rain really made them come down. Lots of the daffodils we planted last fall are blooming. Papa would have loved them. The lilac out front is budding. Haven't looked at the ones out back. Sears is supposed to come out and look at the lawn tractor. Replace the belt and do an overhaul. I got the trash out and scooped the litter box. Might run the vacuum tomorrow. I need to get on the girls toy slings. Maybe tomorrow on that too. I have heartburn and hate the world without Leo but the dogs need me and I have to be here until I can go. The sooner the better I need to be with Papa. Hope the girls can go diamond hunting this summer. I think they would enjoy it. Papa's trees are looking good. As is his grape vines. Need to plant his gourds this spring. Need to have him back.

Really Tired of This

This week, I picked up pine cones, stuffing and poo poo in the back yard, had neighbors over to visit, played with the dogs. So why am I miserable and so very lonely? I have always figured that each person had a reason to be alive. But my reason is gone. I'm like half a person not even half because the very best part of me is missing. I wander through the house and yard with no direction and without any reaction to anything. I feel like I am one of the living dead just going through the motions of a life. I am really ready to be out of this misery. The girls are coming in a couple of weeks that will be fun. I will enjoy them. Puplets are really growing up. Have flowers blooming in the yard. Called Sears repair for the lawn tractor. Trying to be a responsible grownup. Wanting to be dead with Leo.

See... Real Snow

Here is proof that there was really snow here. Since it has all melted now. Was really cold last night though. Down to 20 and I couldn't sleep so spent lots of time outside smoking. Brr. Am so glad the Pooh had a good cruise. She deserves it more than anyone I know except maybe me. HeeHee only kidding. Me on a boat?? Not! I got to talk to Miss L for 2 hours last night. We must have covered every subject there is. She is such a sweetie. A wanted to talk to her friend but she had to use her cell cause it was L's turn. May try to lay some marble for path today. May not. Did take a shower so I have accomplished something.

Gonna go dry this mop of hair now. So I can go out and smoke!

My Girls

There was snow this morning when I got up. The girls thought it was great fun. They were running and playing in it. Course it all melted off soon. They are really growing. Panda is getting a trifle chunky. She stands on her back legs and "talks" to me. She is really my girl. Punkin is the big growler. She growls and barks at everything. Course she does it while backing up and looking for me to protect her. Such Baby girls.

Oh No

Why oh why can't I get to my blog? I am having withdrawals. I'm dying here.

No wait. I can It's a miracle. I am here and the words are going on the screen. I feel so relieved.

It must have been the gremlin puppies. Or possibly that I haven't had a cigarette this morning, or I am just totally crazed. I think I'll bet on the latter.