My girls on a GOP

Yep that's my girls on a GOP. Never thought I would see that. Wee, I have decided to buy a lawn mower tomorrow. I may get the riding mower fixed but still want to get another. Saw some sleet and snow today. Boo Hiss. But is just supposed to be rain tomorrow. Just watched "The Devil Wears Prada" I guess it was OK. Nothing I would have paid to see. The neighbor loaned it to me. Have the body for my witch doll made. Can't decide how to do her hair. And of course, still have the petticoat, dress , overdress and cape to sew....... Many months worth of stuff.

I think I may change the sheets on the bed tomorrow. And that is my big plan for the day. I took a shower tonight so that's done. I just don't have the desire to do much. I will be so glad when it's spring. I want to be able to work out in the flowerbeds and find things to do outside. This weekend I am going to lay down some marble pieces to make a pathway to the shop and hopefully under the clothesline. So I do have some plans just not many. Finally got Papa's death certificates. He died at 9:17. So now I know it wasn't the 9:22 they told me at first. Life is way overrated and old age sucks.

Rain again

Well, it's raining again. I did laundry and was vacuuming when the belt broke. So I had to run out to walmart and buy a new belt. Then went ahead and got gas for the car. Had to come home and re belt the vacuum and then finish. Got the clothes hung up and the vacuum put away, fed the dogs and now I think I will sit in Papa's chair the rest of the day. Hasn't rained hard just light so hopefully will be good for the onions. Went to the junk store here in Waldo. They were so upset about Papa. I told them so was I. Guess I will never get used to telling the story and listening to people telling me how they can't believe it. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. They need to be quiet. Ok enough bitching and I am going to chair.

My Busy Day

I have had an ok day today. I went all over town trying to find the right size furnace filters. Ended up ordering them from amazon. Bought the pups a couple of ten cent stuffed toys at the junk store, replaced my broken rain gauge, planted 2 hyacinths in my sacred circle, and 80 onion bulbs in the garden. Finished cutting out my witch doll. Maybe now I can get it made LOL. I might try to vacuum tomorrow. It sure needs it. Papa's fruit trees are starting to bud. If they have fruit I have to put the bird netting over them. The grapes are ok and I picked out the lawnmower I may get at walmart. So I am moving right along. Except that I still have this big empty space in my heart and life. But besides that I am ok.. I hope the Pooh has an awesome time on her boat. She deserves it.

Birds and more birds

I have such beautiful birds in my yard. Cardinals, blue jays, red headed woodpeckers, blue birds, chickadees and yes A ROBIN. I am doing the happy robin for spring dance. I am so tired of this cold damp weather. Boo Hiss. I want to be able to go out and work in the flower beds and see Papa's trees budding out. Will have to put the anti bird net on them if they happen to produce. I am just ready for the gloom to be gone. Got one bill for the hospital in La $24,500.00 yep I just put it in the pile. I can't believe I am so far in debt. Have to file when I get all the bills in. Dogs are fine and they are such a good thing for me to have. I would miss them if I didn't have them to talk to. Waiting for spring It's a good thing.

I think I hate the world or at least part of it

Okay here I am ready to KILL SOMETHING and that's not good. The idiot that is my neighbor has been taking things from L's shop after dark, until I changed the lock. And I just found out how much was taken today. Well, it's all back home now I hope. I told him I was done. When one of the girls come up I will send them over to get the guns and keys he has. I don't want to go over there and don't want his skanky ass over here. MAD MAD MAD.

Had the oil changed on the car today and bought dog food. So now I am set for another couple of weeks longer if it warms up. I only feed them canned food when its cold. And brr it has been very cold. I hate cold. Ready for warm and warmer. Note I did not say hot.

The picture is from a card a friend sent to me. I love it. I need to send this friend some embroidered tea towels. She is such a dear.

Well, things have to get better cause they just aren't allowed to get any worse right now. Moma said!!

My Lap is Overflowing

I feel like my lap (or is that plate) is too full. I took the truck to have the front end aligned. Take endless calls from bill collectors. Don't have the money to pay them. Am being threatened with being taken to court and having a lien put on the house. Just can't cope with all this CRAP. Plus it is cold cold outside. We had snow flurries this morning and sleet this afternoon. Supposed to have more Saturday. Gonna have to go tomorrow and get more dog food. They are eating so much because of the cold. Poor guys. They need the extra calories to generate warmth. I am so tired of listening to people telling me I have to pay bills. Called social security again and they dropped the ball. Didn't send me the letter for his money from November due December. So will get them in a few days and try to fill them out and return them. I really was hoping for that money. But guess I don't need it yet. Had to turn the thermostat up to 62 from 60. I was freezing. My jonquils are up 5 to 6 inches in the front yard. I hope they survive. The neighbors are up too so I have hope. Maybe tomorrow will be better just not worse please.O.O

Rain Rain Go Away

Well not really, we need the rain and when it stops it's supposed to be cold cold cold. So I would rather have the rain. Had a big snit at the neighbor yesterday. He is such an ass. Wanted to know why I was upset with him. Lets see.....he told everyone I was crazy, took some of Papa's tools without telling me, said he wished I would go away for a while so he could get more tools from the shop, sold things and said I would wait months for the money, is constantly UP MY BUTT, that's just for starters. Well, the final straw was when he started to cry and tell ME how hard it was not to have L around. I wake up every morning without him, go to bed every night without him, and spend every minute of my life wanting him to be here. And I am supposed to be sympathetic??? I don't think so Tim. Oh well, maybe after my slight explosion he will go away.
Another day is just Another day.

HUMMM maybe a new tattoo

I think this would make a spiffy tattoo. If I had the money I would get it. Maybe I could ask for it for christmas birthday etc..... Anyway, I am fine. Went to the Dr yesterday and she gave me more MS drugs so I feel better. I won't say better then what. As for recipe, 4 potatoes, 4 onions, dried bell peppers, dried celery, no salt seasoning, and beef broth. Really good. Have to give the dogs their flea and heartworm meds today or tomorrow. Bought a couple of mexican tv dinners. They look good. Gonna make chicken enchiladas next week and put them in the freezer in one serving portions. I am so efficient!! Ran the dishwasher and have gone thru scads of e mails. So I am on a roll. Or is it that I am roly poly?? Well anyway, today things are looking alright.

Still Here

OK... so how long does this empty feeling last? Just how long can one exist with a giant hole in one's heart? Well, I know for a fact that it can be 40 days. Cause I have done it that long. Ran the dust mop yesterday...Paa would say the dust police were gonna get me. Talked to the Baby, sang her Birthday song, puttered around. Good thing I slept last night after not being able to sleep the night before. Oh, I brought my swing around to the back deck. Got tired of asking "friends & neighbors" to do it with no avail. So now I can swing and smoke to my hearts content. UCSD sent the sweetest card to me. They are awesome people. Must get my will done to make sure they get the house. Made some French Onion soup from scratch...my three remaining onions were starting to sprout. So that was good the soup not the sprouting. Panda goes for her stitch removable today or tomorrow and I go to the Dr tomorrow. The dingy neighbor and her husband asked me to go to their church and see them get baptized on Sunday. I promise I won't yell "Hold em under longer". The M's have decided that I must be heathen cause I'm not spouting religious tripe regarding all. After all, when your life falls apart lets "praise god" because WHY????? Still have my yule tree up. Since L helped me decorate it I plan on keeping it up year around. I think it adds something festive to the front room. And we all need festive! Jonquils are up about 3 inches. I have to buy a lawnmower. And my hair is dirty. Thus goes my life. Blessed Be

Waiting to Go

Here I am Still

well here it is another day. Picked up some dog poo poo in the yard. Went to the funeral home to check on the death certificates. Still not ready the dr signed it and in La the coroner has to so will be couple of more days. I made myself go to the two thrift stores that we had gone to the morning before he left. Was hard and not near as much fun without my love. He made it fun. Went to walmart and bought 80 lbs of dog food. Got that in the barrel and some more glade plugins. Have to keep the house smelling good. Then came home. I might wash sheets tomorrow. Or not. My sweet neighbors are getting baptised next Sunday. I guess I will go since they asked. But only because they are so precious. Sold the planner and some tie downs also the rooter and bits. I hope they will be enjoyed as much as he enjoyed them. Breaks my heart to have them go. Got a wonderful card from UCSD today. Those people are so caring. It made me cry and had to fight a lump in my throat all day. But one more down and another to come. If anyone wants to know, I am more then ready to go be with Papa. Just for the record. If anyone wants to know.

It has been 35 days since the love of my life went home to his creator. It happened quickly ..he had a massive coronary and thankfully very little pain. His ashes are in an M&M tin on the mantle ( small amount in my necklace) and I talk to him all the time. I am trying very hard to adjust to not having him around. He was always smiling and happy and I really miss that. But will do as he would expect and go on till it is my turn to be with him. I have our five dogs and they are a big help. You just can't stay unhappy with five HAPPY tails wagging at you. This is the last picture of him and his last project. He had progressed to birdhouses. I will never get used to not having him here but with time will be able to do the things that need done. One good thing, the last puppy is spayed now. So at least no more new ones. Gonna get a quilt top out eventually and start quilting it. So I am a survivor.