Still Here

OK... so how long does this empty feeling last? Just how long can one exist with a giant hole in one's heart? Well, I know for a fact that it can be 40 days. Cause I have done it that long. Ran the dust mop yesterday...Paa would say the dust police were gonna get me. Talked to the Baby, sang her Birthday song, puttered around. Good thing I slept last night after not being able to sleep the night before. Oh, I brought my swing around to the back deck. Got tired of asking "friends & neighbors" to do it with no avail. So now I can swing and smoke to my hearts content. UCSD sent the sweetest card to me. They are awesome people. Must get my will done to make sure they get the house. Made some French Onion soup from scratch...my three remaining onions were starting to sprout. So that was good the soup not the sprouting. Panda goes for her stitch removable today or tomorrow and I go to the Dr tomorrow. The dingy neighbor and her husband asked me to go to their church and see them get baptized on Sunday. I promise I won't yell "Hold em under longer". The M's have decided that I must be heathen cause I'm not spouting religious tripe regarding all. After all, when your life falls apart lets "praise god" because WHY????? Still have my yule tree up. Since L helped me decorate it I plan on keeping it up year around. I think it adds something festive to the front room. And we all need festive! Jonquils are up about 3 inches. I have to buy a lawnmower. And my hair is dirty. Thus goes my life. Blessed Be